Busy Bee’s Crochet

c-mama’s crochet journal and ramblings

Tag: Dream

Listen to your heart, not your head

I had a dream last night where, after I let my anger at a silly situation come out in front of my pastor, he told me to listen to my heart, not my head. In my dream I didn’t quite understand. I had thought that listening to your heart meant being ruled by your emotions.

When I woke up those words kept ringing out in my head. I believe that the Lord speaks through dreams and sometimes you need to write them down immediately or you’ll forget them. But I think that sometimes the Lord is really gracious (He’s gracious ALL the time, I know) and highlights things to you so you don’t forget and that it’s a word for right now or it’s something important that you’ll need to remember for the future.

As I ponder this, I remember my pastor teaching on where our spirit is located, in our gut area. The Bible writers often refer to this as where we feel and think. I’m also reminded of head knowledge versus experience.

I think that this saying is encouraging me to think on the experiences I’ve had versus what knowledge may be telling me. Darkness is coming, but the LIGHT will prevail. We cannot give in to fear, we cannot let the “reality” of what is going on around us take us out of our peace in God. We need to listen to our heart, remember our experiences with the Lord and trust in Him, not our circumstances.

Crocheting a dream

First, I’ll start off saying that it’s my belief that God speaks through dreams. Not every dream is from God, but those dreams from Him are there.

I’m quite a dreamer. I try to remember to write them down and see what God (if it’s from Him) is saying to me.

Let me also interject here that I have been praying and asking God to help me design my own crochet projects. There are a TON of wonderful crochet patterns out there, but along the way, in this funky world of design, some of these designers got the message to tell others who use their patterns that they are NOT to sell items made with their patterns. Frankly, I think that’s a bit snobbish of them. Do they seriously think they’d be able to fill all those orders? No, I think they don’t want someone else making a profit using their pattern. As this whole electronic/internet age widens out and I read more about what others are doing, it just saddens me. Before I purchase patterns, I read what the designers do not want you to do with their patterns. If they do not want finished products sold, I refuse to purchase their patterns. I will gladly lay out money for patterns, just not for those. Trust me, I can be snobbish right back.

Where was I? Ok, so in light of all that, I thought it would just be easier if I could make up my stuff from my own pattern and had been asking God for help. See, I don’t want to take the time to do the designing. I want to go straight to the crocheting. I admire and appreciate the work that goes into designing crochet patterns. That’s why I don’t mind paying for them. But I thought, hey, maybe God will give me something in my dreams. I won’t know unless I ask. And I believe that when I ask, He will answer in some way.

I had dreamed about crochet 2 other times that I can remember. But I didn’t follow through with crocheting them out because I was too intimidated. I’m a perfectionist and was afraid of messing it up or not getting it right. I think if I had just simply worked them up the next day, He would have blessed my work and I would be getting better at this. I did write those dreams down, but since I cannot draw, those images are lost. 😦

2 nights ago, however, I was crocheting in my dream. The focus was on the work I was doing at one point, but for the most part, even though I was walking around crocheting, the focus was on other parts of the dream.

I wrote the dream down, and wrote down as much detail of the crochet as I could remember. The piece made no sense to me and I didn’t know what it was. I had some other things I wanted to finish yesterday, so I put the dream crochet on the back burner, periodically thinking about that dream, wondering if I’d try it out. It was a bit simpler than the others I had dreamed, but there was still that fear there. How do I start it out? What if I don’t get the pattern exact? And just what the heck is it? Yes, I was saying “what the heck is it?” to God. Like He doesn’t know my thoughts anyway… 🙂

On Friday nights we go to church. Our church started having a Friday night service years ago. It was strange, at first, going to church on a Friday night, but now I cannot imagine doing anything else. The kids and I get there about an hour and a half before church starts. I brought along the yarn I used in my dream and began. I was going to start with a swatch because that’s what you do, right? Well, how many designers get patterns from God in their dreams? I’m sure some of them do, but I think I’m skipping that swatch stage (yay!). So, the swatch didn’t work out as I didn’t know how to work a swatch for this particular piece. I just dove right in. It was funny. As people came in, they asked what I was making. I said, “I don’t know. I’m crocheting a dream.” I still don’t know what it’s going to be and I don’t know if it will BE anything. I think God was saying, “You asked for a pattern. I gave you one. Now, are YOU going to do anything with it? If you do, I will give you more.” So, against every fiber of my being, I will complete this. Why is it so hard? Because I don’t know it’s purpose. It’s hard enough to walk by faith, but crochet by faith? And the fact that this is so difficult for me shows me it’s from God. My flesh screaming out in rebellion is a good indicator.

We shall see what transpires.

I’m using Bernat Satin Sport in beige and a G hook.

Rogue Waves

I had been watching the television show on the Discovery Channel called, “Deadliest Catch”. Cool show about Alaskan crab fishermen. They had mentioned something about rogue waves coming and coming over the ship.

Monday morning, I awoke to a strange dream. I was in the ocean. There were lots of people there at the beach. This wave comes out of nowhere. It’s HUGE. It is over us and smashes us down. I’m ok and look back and there is another one. I run to the beach and the next wave comes and overtakes the beach.

There’s more to the dream, but more on that later.

I’m now going through the tv guide looking for interesting shows to record and come across History Channel’s, Rogue Waves. I’m watching it now and am reminded of my dream and what I saw on Deadliest Catch.

I think I have some research to do and see what God is speaking in this.

Frann. Debbie.

I believe that God uses dreams to speak to us. I woke up this morning (maybe around 8:00 or so) to a woman saying, “Frann. Debbie.” My mother-in-law’s name is Frann. My name is Debbie. My first thought was that an angel was calling both of us. I don’t know exactly why, and I did ask God why we were both called. I know that we both suffer/suffered in the past from asthma. So I prayed against asthma, prayed for healing from asthma. I also prayed protection for Frann.

I do pray that the Lord reveal more as the day goes on regarding this.